爸爸，我很想你知道...

Daddy..你知道吗，我好想好想你..

虽然你已经离开了我们一年多了..不过一切就恍如昨天..

说不伤心是假的..我真的好想你..

我真的好感谢上帝..在你离开前让我和你成为那么要好的知己..

这也是我爱上帝最实在的理由..

记得那时候李发南医生的一句话，提醒了我应该要更多更多的来爱你..

当我还处于叛逆的时候，你说的话我都不想听..

常常认为你不了解..还一直说要独立..

我知道那时候的你是多么的担心..

即使我并不是很长进，还常常顶嘴..

即使全世界都看不起我..不过你一直就在我身边..

其实我都懂..

Daddy，我很想你知道..

现在的我长大了...我不再叛逆了..我懂事了..

我还是个上帝的粉丝呢！:)

我知道你会引以为傲..

因为从阿姨那里知道你是那么常的为着我和妈妈祷告..

Daddy，上帝听到你的祷告了..

他听到了！也回应了！

也因着你离去，阿姨们也信主了~

Daddy,你知道吗..

我多么希望可以跟你一起去教会崇拜..上主日学..祷告呢..

虽然你不在我身边了，不过..我知道你一直都在天上为着我们祷告呢！

我可以感受到的.. :)

爸爸..千言万语在心里不懂该怎么说..

只好简单的让你知道我想你了..我爱你..我会好好照顾着这个家的.. :)

Everything will be alright..

My mum and I went to Penang today! :)

The weather was super hot~

We went to "7 road" ,Little India..And auntie Ann hus!

Actually i felt bit sad today because of something happen..

I hope i could ignore it but i can't make it!!

I'm really confused with RELATIONSHIP..Haizzz..

Perhaps the person doesn't care about me ..

I just want to tell the person..

"You may not know how much i care for you..

Perhaps we haven't know each other very long..

But, i really care for you..."

Haizzz..it was too sad to write it down..

I like to smile..Honestly..

I wish one day i could smile for myself but not others..

I wish i could met a person who know me well, who i can share all my thing to him/her..

I don't want to live for others but myself and Christ!

Anyway,everything will be alright..

the only thing i can do is pray!

"Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for everything You gave to me..You love me so much and so much..For You alone deserve all praise! Father, i wish i wouldn't care so much..I know You will make a way for me..Father, You know how i felt when i saw the post..You know how sad i was..You know how disappointed i was..You know it all Lord..Oh Lord, Save me out from the sadness..Oh Lord,for i know You are the peace that guards my heart, my help in times of need..Thank You Lord! I love You! In Jesus name i pray, Amen! "

Psalm 34:17-18

The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescue them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.

My prayer for today :)

Lord Jesus, thank You for causing me not to worry as much as I had been. But I still worry too much. Today I ask You, Precious Lord, to take away more of my worries. May I hear Your words that You have said many times..."Fear not." Thank You Lord Jesus. Amen ♥

很有感觉的一首诗歌..

我心切切渴慕你(My heart shall long for You)

我心切切渴慕你，乾旱疲乏無水之地。
你是我一切，我心完全屬於你，只願更多與你相親。
我要切切尋求你，乾旱疲乏無水之地。
你是我一切，我心不住思念你，只願與你面對面。

我要永永遠遠來愛你，我要永永遠遠渴慕你。
你是我一切，我心不住思念你，只願與你面對面。

你的愛最美，我心不住思念你，只願與你面對面。

Performance Practice..:)

Some of us will be performing a drama on Christmas Eve..

So, I went to church for performance practice to9!

The process was pretty funny :)

I'm acting as an old woman in this drama..And there are also some of sister and brother in Christ who acting as rich man who doesn't believed on God, atheist and other characters.. :)

The purpose we performing this drama was let people who are non-christian know that our God is true God and wealth doesn't only mean rich!..:)

Blablabla~~Finally we finished our practice at 10pm!

All of us had fun tonight! :)

Okay! It's time to end my story! hahaa.. :)

Recently my feet felt so cold when i was on bed..Mama said it's curious, because our feet should be warm all the time..So, maybe i'm going to be sick..:)

Well, i will go to clinic and i know God will bless me! :D

So, the only action i take before i go to clinic was wearing socks while sleeping! Hehhee.. :)

Oppss..The most popular topic in facebook today was Lunar Eclipse (月食)..

Everybody were discussing about it on their facebook..

Hmm..Actually i'm not interested on it at all..Haha..

Anyway, i also wish i could enjoy looking on Moon with my beloved tonight but unfortunately i don't have.. :D

Hahhaa..Bye! :D

Fantastic Editing Software!! :)

Hahaha..

I just realized there is a function call "阿宝色 Ah Bao Se " in 美图秀秀( Mei Tu Xiu Xiu) is so fantastic!

It could simply change the color in our picture to another color..

I tried lot of picture..Some of them look prettier..Some of them look more ugly after i have edited!

Hahaha..it's pretty funny.. :)

Let me show you one pic which i have edited! :)

The next photo after the green in color shirt was the one I've edited!It looks interesting right!?

Haha..even though i was excited bout it but still feel bit sad because i was outdated!

Lot of girl already used before and i just realized now..==

Anyway, I've found it out at the last! :)

Such a sweetest song i ever heard!! :)

I'm listening " Jesus is the Sweetest Name of all " from Youtube..

Such a sweetest song i ever heard!

The lyric is just so sweetttttt~~~~

"Jesus, You are the sweetest name of all..

Jesus, You always hear me when i call...

Oh Jesus, You always pick me up each time i fall..

You are the sweetest, sweetest name of all..

Jesus, how I love to praise Your name..

Jesus, You're the still the first, the last, the same..

Oh Jesus, You died and take away my shame..

You are sweetest, sweetest name of all..

Jesus, You are the soon and coming King..

Jesus, we need the love that You can bring..

Oh Jesus, we lift our voices up and sing..

You are the sweetest, sweetest name of all.."

There is a link for this song

--> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QODaF1hkJY&feature=related

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You!

My Heavenly Father, Thank You for this wonderful year!

Thank You for the little and big milestones that have happened in my life..!

I have a joyful spirit just because of You my Father..

Your little girl now is growing up..And I know that You are happy for me~

I know that sometimes the tears are falling from my eyes during i worshiping, praising and praying are not because of i was sad, it just because i know that there is so much and so much love and gratitude within and all around me.

My Heavenly Father, I Thank You for this precious, very precious gift...

A life lived in love is so much different..

I know i walked through the darkness valley, and yet i still here, alive and free! It just because of You! :)

And now for me, everyday has become a celebration! :)

My Heavenly Father, Thank You for all the miracles in my life even though there r small miracles.

The miracle between my daddy and me..The current miracle...

The miracle of finding, knowing and loving myself.

I was lost but now I am found...

My Heavenly Father, How great is Your love...

You always protect me..I'm so glad to be Your child..

Your love was unfailing, unchanging. It was steadfast…

I'm just a sinner..I did lot of bad thing before..But, You still love me..

I see that the miracle of love is the greatest gift of all...

Heavenly Father, Thank You for giving me all the opportunities to create ripples of love..

As I have experienced your love and grow to love myself, I noticed that I am reaching out more to others...

I rejoice every time and now I'm able to respond better to situations..

I am becoming a better daughter, sister and friend..

My Heavenly Father, it has so much and so much thing i would to Thank You!

Thank You for everything You gave to me..

When i grow up, I will still be serving You! :)

I'm glad to know You, my friend Jesus... Muakkkzzzzz... :)

删除 Delete ..

时间可以淡化一切..却不是忘记一切..

淡化一切，是因为这些回忆还记得..

可是当想起来的时候..却已经不再那么心痛和难受..也或许一点都不在意了..

想起来，也是淡淡一笑而已..

这个事情让我体会到.."现在的痛苦，在一定的时间后..就会不见的.."

但是千万不要勉强自己去忘掉，顺其自然吧..

花了一些时间把关于“他”的东西都删掉了..

因为只有删除掉才会让我有勇气回来看我以前所写的blog...:)

常在想..有时候真的常常都在逃避..不敢面对事实..

不过..这始终还是要面对的..

每一件事情的轻重都只是在于我们怎么去看待而已..

选择原谅总是最对的选择..

因为恨一个人只会让我们更痛苦..

就算一时间不能完全的原谅..不过我相信时间真的可以淡化一切的怨恨..

说真的，这次伤得挺重的..

不过真的好感谢那爱我的上帝..

我知道他一直都在医治着我..

最近爱上了一首歌“勇敢走下去”..

那一段歌词让我好感动..

"我并不完美也并不特别，而你却是为我舍弃生命的主.."

很多人问我怎么会那么的爱这位上帝..

我只会回答说:“因为他改变了我生命好多好多的东西..他让我看透了很多事情..他从黑暗里把带出来..他很呵护我，不让我被人欺负..."

好多好多生活上的事情，都让我晓得这位上帝是很真实的..

虽然触摸不到，不过我知道他就在我身边..

昨天看到了一段话..

"有时劳苦和重担压着心头..你每一步都沉重..

当你伤心的泪水流不停的时候，你要相信主都知透..

将面具完全卸下，敞开心灵深处最真的你..

打开心里最黑暗的角落..让耶稣照亮，使你得自由..

就算你又诉不尽的痛，耶稣是你的安慰..他医治所有伤痛..♥"

这真的很对呢！

There's an anointing here..

Memories..=)

Its an album that took from BRYAN..=)

All is about funeral of daddy=)

Pastor Roland was praying..

And we were singing "牵我的手"( Kan gua eh qiu/ Hold my hand)..
It was daddy favorite song!

Let me share a miracle here..

When daddy was in unconscious situation at the hospital..

We cant even wake him up tat time..

and he cant open his eye..

But i knew he heard what we talked with..

After all the members of Calvary church included me sang the song..

Daddy eyes just suddenly opened!!!!

For me, it was a MIRACLE!!!

But..i felt sad cuz mummy not over there that time..

Pastor Roland...Sister Mary and other sister and brother in Christ were praying hard for him in the hospital..

At the last , he gt response~~

Daddy opened his eye when we sang his favorite song..

i knew he wanted to back belongs with Father God and Jesus dee..=)

So..after members of Calvary church and some auntie went back..

and there r juz left me and daddy in hospital..

Juz a very short period..about 15 minute..

after they went back..

Heartbeat of daddy started went down and i have asked nurse came to check..

The indian doctor told me "sorry"..

Im crying on tat time and call to mummy at the 1st time~~~

After tat..i call bro who rushing back from Austrilia..

But could'nt get his call cuz he ard on flight..

then i called Sis..i ask sis talk with daddy..and i put my phone beside daddy ear..

I knew he can heard!!!

but could'nt save him up~

Daddy was smile when he died~All of us felt happy even though we were sad cuz daddy went back to his new home with peacefully..

juz i cant accept tat i juz ate a mexico bun and has been chat alot with daddy before the day he lefted us..

Its too suddenly..

but i knew daddy know tat he is going to leave us before he admitted in hospital..

Dont ask me why i know..Its an eye contact between my daddy and me..=)

hehe..

Ok..stop here..=)

share some photo with all of u..=)

We were singing...

Dennis and Grace looked sad..i knew they felt regret cuz they cant accompany daddy at the end of his life..T.T

The childs beside TV were singing "牵我的手"..

auntie and uncle were waiting for the funeral..

Auntie sai ann!! She helped daddy alot~~Thanks Aunt!

My cousin...

I like this pic the most..We really miss u..daddy....

They were crying...

K-bro and his mummy...

My uncle!! alot of ppl said he look like daddy include me=)

US!!!

8282！！！

was Sending the coffin of daddy to the car..

the van was playing"主爱拯救了我" (Love Rescued Me) on the journey to penang Batu Gantung..

Dennis lookedsad=(
Going...
reached..get together to eat b4 running the cremation..
.PastoRoland was praying

All of us have sang few song.."牵我的手，轻轻听......"

I was felt glad cuz some of my cousin , aunt and fren who r not christian..

But they were singing with us..

Its shows their respectness to daddy..

Thx..God Bless u all...
Took the last look..Done..

I wont feel very sad cuz i believed tat r juz a body..Daddy spirit alrd in heaven with Father God and Jesus...

We r getting move the ahshes of daddy to new placed on middle of March~

There r juz for christian!

yeahh!!! look peaceful there..=)

Baptism of Daddy=)

Haha..my daddy look chubby rite???
1......

2....going down to the pool....

starting d...

Daddy was making baptismal promise..
DONE~!!!Daddy was belongs foreverto Christ !!!

Mummy and daddy ( left hand side)...Auntie and Pastor( right hand side)..

Another pastor praying for both of them..

They was going back=)

Daddy look chubby!!!hahhaa..love!!

As a christian, we belived that if the person is baptized in the name of Jesus for the remmision of sins and they r a beliver having the faith the pleases God than they r fill with the Holy Spirit and some speak in tongues before or after baptism.

Baptise takes away original sin, all personal sins and all punishment due to sins.

Share a funny story with all of u..

When they year daddy went to baptized..Mummy was promise daddy she will follow with him!

But..When the day coming..mummy regret..haha..

She told Daddy and pastor Roland.."The time not yet reached!"

hahhaa..

So, when tis year ( 1st january of 2011)..

when mummy and me went to baptized..Pastor Roland gv mummy be the 1st!

hahhaa..its funny!!!

I so hope i can baptized with daddy at that momment..

But at that time..im not yet woke up!

Thanks to u Father God..Thanks to woke me up!

Thanks to let me saw the miracle that happend infront of me with daddy when he unconcious in hospital!!

I knew u bring him back to his new home..

I knew he still side with me..

hehe..

The most important things are..

I knew sure daddy felt happi and excited cuz me, mummy and shasha was BAPTIZED!!

we will meet u after we leave tis world..hehe

i knew tis was such one of ur dream..We did it!!

love u~