Sunday, February 23, 2014

第一次堕胎给女孩带来的伤害,往往不是手术..

     读研2年后,我隐约察觉自己和他的爱情已经走到了尽头,大二恋爱,大四同居,到现在,一共5年,所有的炙热、所有的甜蜜、所有的幸福……都随着时间淡去,剩下的只是疲倦与敷衍。他总是露出不耐烦的神情,谈话时总是敷衍了事,对于做爱,更感觉他是在例行公事,完后倒头就睡!

     不知道是不是老天想要考验我,就在这样不合时宜的时间,我怀孕了!看着那早孕试纸上的两道红线,我哭不出眼泪,浑身充满无奈与疼痛感!这个孩子要不要?去做人流,可是去哪家医院,要多少钱?我一无所知。在加上做过人流的朋友的描述,我更不敢去,我惧怕疼。做药流?可是听人说药流很容易流不干净,弄不好可能把命搭进去。怎么办?

     然而心里还是有着一点微妙的喜悦,潜意识里暗暗希望这个孩子是我俩关系的转机,甚至想起若干年前他说过:如果你怀孕了,一定要告诉我,一切都要两个人分担……那是天真的年代,以为一枚受精卵可以换来一个男人一辈子的承诺。但我还是要告诉他这件事情,我想我还在爱着他,这个还未成形的孩子用微弱的方式提醒了我,也许我们会一起拥有这个孩子。

    然而整个世界都在他知道这个消息之后崩塌了。他面无表情,淡淡地说了很多话,大部分是指责我不懂事,孩子根本就是个BigTrouble,完全不用找他商量,我应该立时决定堕胎,不然肚子大了,会给两个人带来无穷的麻烦……最后他说:“你想做个伟大的母亲,可是谁来做父亲呢?”

    我沉默地听着自己的心嘎嘣嘎嘣碎掉的声音,所有的犹豫和不舍都在瞬间遁迹潜形,我决定再疼痛,也要去掉腹中的这块孽肉,再也不要跟这个滔滔不绝的男人有任何的关联。第二天,我收拾了行李,义无反顾的离开了那个男人…三天后,我在选了维伦人流,流掉了那个孩子,也流掉了与他有关的一切…

* 第一次堕胎给女孩带来的伤害,往往不是手术,而往往是来源于男人的态度。
    在向男人征求意见的时候,女孩其实已经下了决定,或者已经知道了结果。但是她只能来找他,是他和她一道制造出了这件产品,他们要共同负责。然而一旦进入到商讨小生命去留的问题,男女的行为、言语都瞬间开始散发不一样的味道,女人的测探、发问、烦躁,男人的圆滑、耍花招、无奈——其实就算她早想好了要堕胎,也不希望他替自己说出来。她要的可能只是他的意见,而并非武断——但是结果往往让人心凉,更别说那些一听到女朋友怀孕就消失的混蛋了。

    第一次堕胎给女孩带来的伤害,往往不是手术,而往往是来源于男人的态度。

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

The meaning of Different color of Roses...

              Roses come in many different shades and each color has a specific meaning that helps to convey our different thoughts and emotions. At times, words might escape us and we can’t quite get out what we want to say. For hundreds of years people have given roses and flowers as a sign of love, joy, bereavement, and as a way to congratulate someone. The color of the rose can express just what you want to say even when you haven’t said a word. Flowers speak to us and to our inner soul in a way that is sometimes hard to explain. 

The Meaning of Rose Colors

  1. Red Roses: If you want to say ‘I Love You’ then you should give red roses. Nothing symbolizes love quite like a red rose does which are often called the lover’s rose. Not only do red roses symbolize saying ‘I Love You’ but they also show commitment and undying love. A red rose is used to show courage and respect, especially for fallen soldiers.
  2. Dark Red Rose: This rose symbolizes rare, awestruck beauty.
  3. Pink Roses: Used to express grace, dignity, and happiness. A pink rose is feminine and refined and is also a symbol of admiration. Often times pink roses are sent at the beginning of new relationships to show the promise of a new love adventure.
  4. Dark Pink Roses: If you want to express appreciation, gratitude, or to say thank you, send dark pink roses.
  5. Light Pink Roses: This shade of pink shows both grace and elegance, plus admiration for beauty and refinement, and even sweetness.
  6. White Roses: The White Rose represents purity and innocence, and to say – I am worthy of you. White roses are given to mothers or the matriarch of the family to show respect.
  7. Red and White Roses: Given together, these signify unity.
  8. Cream Roses: The cream rose is used most often in weddings and symbolizes young love.
  9. Orange Roses: Show that special someone that they are desired and you are excited to see them by sending Orange Roses. These flowers shows that they are wanted, desired, and that your passion runs deep for them. This fiery rose is all about showing that emotional, passionate side.
  10. Coral Roses: Desire – pure wanting of that other person.
  11. Yellow Roses: One of the best sentiments to show friendship, happiness, and the promise of a new beginning. They are also the most sent color of roses to funerals and memorials to say – remember me. They are also most often sent to hospitals as a way a token of wishing the person to get well.
  12. Yellow with Red Tip: These flowers mean friendship and falling in love.
  13. Gold Roses: These roses mean friendship and that you care. They can also mean the promise of a new beginning, happiness, delight and welcome back.
  14. Red and Yellow Roses: Given together, these signify happy feelings
  15. Lavender Roses: Send these to that special someone, you fall in love at first site with and are in a state of pure enchantment. They are very romantic and a very rare rose meant for that special person who you can’t get out of your mind.
  16. Purple Roses: These beautiful roses mean enchantment and magnetism, opulence and majesty
  17. Peach Roses: Show gratitude and simplicity and are the perfect way to say thank you.
  18. Pale Peach Roses: Modesty.
  19. Black Roses: Death and farewell are saying when given black roses. These are not natural in nature and must be dying to get that color.
  20. Blue Roses: These are the unattainable, or impossible love.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

It's time to go back to the blog! "Catherine World"!


Hi! If you asked me "How are you!?", then I will reply " I'm doing Very Good Now!"

Here I attached the lastest me...
Nothing much to say but "Welcome home, Catherine!" 

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

爸爸,我很想你知道...


Daddy..你知道吗,我好想好想你..
虽然你已经离开了我们一年多了..不过一切就恍如昨天..
说不伤心是假的..我真的好想你..

我真的好感谢上帝..在你离开前让我和你成为那么要好的知己..
这也是我爱上帝最实在的理由..
记得那时候李发南医生的一句话,提醒了我应该要更多更多的来爱你..

当我还处于叛逆的时候,你说的话我都不想听..
常常认为你不了解..还一直说要独立..
我知道那时候的你是多么的担心..
即使我并不是很长进,还常常顶嘴..
即使全世界都看不起我..不过你一直就在我身边..
其实我都懂..

Daddy,我很想你知道..
现在的我长大了...我不再叛逆了..我懂事了..
我还是个上帝的粉丝呢!:)
我知道你会引以为傲..
因为从阿姨那里知道你是那么常的为着我和妈妈祷告..
Daddy,上帝听到你的祷告了..
他听到了!也回应了!
也因着你离去,阿姨们也信主了~

Daddy,你知道吗..
我多么希望可以跟你一起去教会崇拜..上主日学..祷告呢..
虽然你不在我身边了,不过..我知道你一直都在天上为着我们祷告呢!
我可以感受到的.. :)

爸爸..千言万语在心里不懂该怎么说..
只好简单的让你知道我想你了..我爱你..我会好好照顾着这个家的.. :)

Everything will be alright..

My mum and I went to Penang today! :)
The weather was super hot~
We went to "7 road" ,Little India..And auntie Ann hus!

Actually i felt bit sad today because of something happen..
I hope i could ignore it but i can't make it!!
I'm really confused with RELATIONSHIP..Haizzz..
Perhaps the person doesn't care about me ..

I just want to tell the person..
"You may not know how much i care for you..
Perhaps we haven't know each other very long..
But, i really care for you..."
Haizzz..it was too sad to write it down..

I like to smile..Honestly..
I wish one day i could smile for myself but not others..
I wish i could met a person who know me well, who i can share all my thing to him/her..
I don't want to live for others but myself and Christ!

Anyway,everything will be alright..
the only thing i can do is pray!


"Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for everything You gave to me..You love me so much and so much..For You alone deserve all praise! Father, i wish i wouldn't care so much..I know You will make a way for me..Father, You know how i felt when i saw the post..You know how sad i was..You know how disappointed i was..You know it all Lord..Oh Lord, Save me out from the sadness..Oh Lord,for i know You are the peace that guards my heart, my help in times of need..Thank You Lord! I love You! In Jesus name i pray, Amen! "


Psalm 34:17-18
The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescue them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.




My prayer for today :)


Lord Jesus, thank You for causing me not to worry as much as I had been. But I still worry too much. Today I ask You, Precious Lord, to take away more of my worries. May I hear Your words that You have said many times..."Fear not." Thank You Lord Jesus. Amen ♥

Monday, December 12, 2011

很有感觉的一首诗歌..

我心切切渴慕你(My heart shall long for You)

我心切切渴慕你,乾旱疲乏無水之地。
你是我一切,我心完全屬於你,只願更多與你相親。
我要切切尋求你,乾旱疲乏無水之地。
你是我一切,我心不住思念你,只願與你面對面。

我要永永遠遠來愛你,我要永永遠遠渴慕你。
你是我一切,我心不住思念你,只願與你面對面。

你的愛最美,我心不住思念你,只願與你面對面。