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时间可以淡化一切..却不是忘记一切..

淡化一切，是因为这些回忆还记得..

可是当想起来的时候..却已经不再那么心痛和难受..也或许一点都不在意了..

想起来，也是淡淡一笑而已..

这个事情让我体会到.."现在的痛苦，在一定的时间后..就会不见的.."

但是千万不要勉强自己去忘掉，顺其自然吧..

花了一些时间把关于“他”的东西都删掉了..

因为只有删除掉才会让我有勇气回来看我以前所写的blog...:)

常在想..有时候真的常常都在逃避..不敢面对事实..

不过..这始终还是要面对的..

每一件事情的轻重都只是在于我们怎么去看待而已..

选择原谅总是最对的选择..

因为恨一个人只会让我们更痛苦..

就算一时间不能完全的原谅..不过我相信时间真的可以淡化一切的怨恨..

说真的，这次伤得挺重的..

不过真的好感谢那爱我的上帝..

我知道他一直都在医治着我..

最近爱上了一首歌“勇敢走下去”..

那一段歌词让我好感动..

"我并不完美也并不特别，而你却是为我舍弃生命的主.."

很多人问我怎么会那么的爱这位上帝..

我只会回答说:“因为他改变了我生命好多好多的东西..他让我看透了很多事情..他从黑暗里把带出来..他很呵护我，不让我被人欺负..."

好多好多生活上的事情，都让我晓得这位上帝是很真实的..

虽然触摸不到，不过我知道他就在我身边..

昨天看到了一段话..

"有时劳苦和重担压着心头..你每一步都沉重..

当你伤心的泪水流不停的时候，你要相信主都知透..

将面具完全卸下，敞开心灵深处最真的你..

打开心里最黑暗的角落..让耶稣照亮，使你得自由..

就算你又诉不尽的痛，耶稣是你的安慰..他医治所有伤痛..♥"

这真的很对呢！

There's an anointing here..

Memories..=)

Its an album that took from BRYAN..=)

All is about funeral of daddy=)

Pastor Roland was praying..

And we were singing "牵我的手"( Kan gua eh qiu/ Hold my hand)..
It was daddy favorite song!

Let me share a miracle here..

When daddy was in unconscious situation at the hospital..

We cant even wake him up tat time..

and he cant open his eye..

But i knew he heard what we talked with..

After all the members of Calvary church included me sang the song..

Daddy eyes just suddenly opened!!!!

For me, it was a MIRACLE!!!

But..i felt sad cuz mummy not over there that time..

Pastor Roland...Sister Mary and other sister and brother in Christ were praying hard for him in the hospital..

At the last , he gt response~~

Daddy opened his eye when we sang his favorite song..

i knew he wanted to back belongs with Father God and Jesus dee..=)

So..after members of Calvary church and some auntie went back..

and there r juz left me and daddy in hospital..

Juz a very short period..about 15 minute..

after they went back..

Heartbeat of daddy started went down and i have asked nurse came to check..

The indian doctor told me "sorry"..

Im crying on tat time and call to mummy at the 1st time~~~

After tat..i call bro who rushing back from Austrilia..

But could'nt get his call cuz he ard on flight..

then i called Sis..i ask sis talk with daddy..and i put my phone beside daddy ear..

I knew he can heard!!!

but could'nt save him up~

Daddy was smile when he died~All of us felt happy even though we were sad cuz daddy went back to his new home with peacefully..

juz i cant accept tat i juz ate a mexico bun and has been chat alot with daddy before the day he lefted us..

Its too suddenly..

but i knew daddy know tat he is going to leave us before he admitted in hospital..

Dont ask me why i know..Its an eye contact between my daddy and me..=)

hehe..

Ok..stop here..=)

share some photo with all of u..=)

We were singing...

Dennis and Grace looked sad..i knew they felt regret cuz they cant accompany daddy at the end of his life..T.T

The childs beside TV were singing "牵我的手"..

auntie and uncle were waiting for the funeral..

Auntie sai ann!! She helped daddy alot~~Thanks Aunt!

My cousin...

I like this pic the most..We really miss u..daddy....

They were crying...

K-bro and his mummy...

My uncle!! alot of ppl said he look like daddy include me=)

US!!!

8282！！！

was Sending the coffin of daddy to the car..

the van was playing"主爱拯救了我" (Love Rescued Me) on the journey to penang Batu Gantung..

Dennis lookedsad=(
Going...
reached..get together to eat b4 running the cremation..
.PastoRoland was praying

All of us have sang few song.."牵我的手，轻轻听......"

I was felt glad cuz some of my cousin , aunt and fren who r not christian..

But they were singing with us..

Its shows their respectness to daddy..

Thx..God Bless u all...
Took the last look..Done..

I wont feel very sad cuz i believed tat r juz a body..Daddy spirit alrd in heaven with Father God and Jesus...

We r getting move the ahshes of daddy to new placed on middle of March~

There r juz for christian!

yeahh!!! look peaceful there..=)

Baptism of Daddy=)

Haha..my daddy look chubby rite???
1......

2....going down to the pool....

starting d...

Daddy was making baptismal promise..
DONE~!!!Daddy was belongs foreverto Christ !!!

Mummy and daddy ( left hand side)...Auntie and Pastor( right hand side)..

Another pastor praying for both of them..

They was going back=)

Daddy look chubby!!!hahhaa..love!!

As a christian, we belived that if the person is baptized in the name of Jesus for the remmision of sins and they r a beliver having the faith the pleases God than they r fill with the Holy Spirit and some speak in tongues before or after baptism.

Baptise takes away original sin, all personal sins and all punishment due to sins.

Share a funny story with all of u..

When they year daddy went to baptized..Mummy was promise daddy she will follow with him!

But..When the day coming..mummy regret..haha..

She told Daddy and pastor Roland.."The time not yet reached!"

hahhaa..

So, when tis year ( 1st january of 2011)..

when mummy and me went to baptized..Pastor Roland gv mummy be the 1st!

hahhaa..its funny!!!

I so hope i can baptized with daddy at that momment..

But at that time..im not yet woke up!

Thanks to u Father God..Thanks to woke me up!

Thanks to let me saw the miracle that happend infront of me with daddy when he unconcious in hospital!!

I knew u bring him back to his new home..

I knew he still side with me..

hehe..

The most important things are..

I knew sure daddy felt happi and excited cuz me, mummy and shasha was BAPTIZED!!

we will meet u after we leave tis world..hehe

i knew tis was such one of ur dream..We did it!!

love u~

Juz came back from church..

The topic of today tat from pastor cyndi was "wishing"

Quite interesting for me and mummy..

I like a sentences tat wrote from pastor prince..
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If you say, "Lord, my face is the problem.I am ugly."
God says" My face will shine on yours.I am your Glory."

It seriously touch my heart..
I dont care hw ppl look on me..
I know im not beautiful..
At least i know u r oways beside me..
I love u Jesus..=)

这几天的天气很热..所以都喜欢把头发给盘起来了..

那位中医给的药还真的有够苦的..鸡蛋糕..=)

hmm..星期一就moral mid term了..

都不懂要读些什么...==

ah gurl去了KAYU..

我闷到.........每一天都在玩poker..

也因为如此,我的Taxes Poker也开始慢慢多钱了..=)

4/1/2010/....1.43pm~

Im going to penang with mummy later..

This travel is juz for daddy..=)

We r going to book the place for daddy..cuz the nw buiding was build up!!

YEAH~~

finally, daddy can move out from batu gantung d...

But..actually daddy was ard in heaven..

wat we did for him is juz to memorize him=)

I love u, daddy=)